it is nice to have a community i can talk to. we are all grieving and it helps to share pics, talk about them, etc. it helps a bit. not always but it does help to talk about our furbabies. it puts a lot of perspective on things.
i hope the results in 2 weeks will be good news. who knows what it will bring
today marks a month since taranga has been gone. i pretty much slept a lot today. then i find out about grumpy cat. tardar has passed away. she was only 7. grumpy cat was my favorite internet cat. i loved the memes that her family created and would put out on the internet. she was a very famous cat. so today wasnt helping that much. i miss taranga so much. i hope she greets grumpy cat at the rainbow bridge. so they all can hear the memes themselves.
it looks like i have bubba back again. i didnt really talk to my boyfriend about it nor did he say that heāll take him back. im not ready but he also likes my house. he is in the bedroom with me and enjoys just being in there. im glad he is temporary and hope my friend will get a new apt soon. dont get me wrong i love bubba but he needs to be with his parents. when his dad comes for a visit he is all over him. bubba makes me miss my baby girl. he is a lovebug. sigh maybe this is a test for me to see if ill be ready for another cat(s). who knows. or maybe he is meant to come back to my house. who knows. the rainbow bridge website has been helpful. it is nice to talk about her and my other baby and know that there are others int he same boat. yesterday they did a rainbow bridge memorial candle ceremony. it was so nice. it made me teary eyed. i guess time will only tell. who knows what bubba can do for me.
Hereās Leo, who is gained almost a pound since starting medication for hyperthyroidism. He is also a bit calmer and not hungry all the time.
thats good! and he is so handsomeā¦im glad he is doing better. it is always nice to hear when a cat feels better.
i have pics of bubba to share. i need to transfer them from my phone to the computer. he is such a love bug. and he loves to give love bites. the life of a cat
Thanks! I was relieved that his condition is so treatable!
thats good news!
this is bubba at petco near the birds. i have two other pics but they are too big so i need to resize them. but here he is. my friend is trying to get him registered as a service animal so he can take him back. the hotel he and his wife are staying at allows service animals. ill miss bubba. he is such a sweetie pie. he seems to be happy at my house.
Very handsome!
thanksā¦he is handsomeā¦he helps me a bit with the loss of taranga. the pain will always be there and the grief will always be there but he helps by being a love bug.
He looks very content!
he is a confident cat. he would chase taranga and she hated him. she didnt appreciate being chased. when he was at my boyfriendās house he would play rough with his cats. he is better as the only cat. he is a snug bug. loves curling up to meā¦helps me sleep, etc
i now wish i could keep bubba. he has been so helpful with the loss of my baby girl. i smile a bit. i know he has to return to my friend and his wife as bubba is his ESA. but i do get to see bubba once in a while for the night. but i do wish i could keep him. even tho he has his hyper stag, he is such a sweetie pie. eventually in time ill get another cat(s). when im ready. but bubba has taken a bit of my heart lately. im not sure why. im not sure its because he fills in the loneliness or what. but there is something. i have more pics of him that i need to figure out how to upload on here as they are on my phone. i may have to download them and share. i love taking pics of him sleeping. he does the cutest thing ever.
i had a strange event that happened twiceā¦not sure if its bubba that is doing it or its a sign from tarangaā¦the bowl that has tarangas food in it has been eaten. then i see the spot that was eaten all covered upā¦this has happened twice. so im not sure what is going on. im not sure if bubba knows how to cover up the bowl. am i going crazy? is this a sign from taranga that she is ok? i cant tell. if i didnt have buba then it would be easier but now that i do have bubba. its harder. i guess ill never know.
UPDATE: here is bubba sleeping in a weird way. this was taken last night
My hyper-thyroid kitty Leo is responding to his meds very nicely. At his follow-up appointment, his thyroid level was in the low normal range and his weight was up 1.5 pounds!! 
yay!!! thats good news :)ā¦bubba is a pain in the tushie sometimes then he has his love bug moments. overall he is a good kitty. he doesnt like it when im gone overnight for some reason. but thats okā¦he knows i love him anyways
i had a dream last night or this morning that had taranga in it. i was putting down a plastic plate down or something near her and she was on my tummy saying that she didnt want the plastic down as that would mean she is dead or something like that. and she didnt want to be dead. now i feel guilt and regret in putting her down. i cried later in the day. i even said outloud im sorry taranga im sorry. my boyfriend distracted me for a few hours which was good that i forgot to tell him about the dream which i will. but the feeling i have right now isnt good.
@amymc :: hugs :: :: hugs :: :: hugs ::
Try not to be so hard on yourself.
I should listen to my own advice too. Itās just over a year that we had to put down one of our cats. I should have done it months before we did when she started to lose weight and not be herself. Long sad story. It was after hours when Lexie (our brindle) took a turn for the worst and the emergency vet was over an hour away. She hated the car and was known to seize, so taking her to the vet wasnāt easy and we decided to wait until the morning and take her to our vet.
She seized all night long, I lost count at 30. The vet couldnāt see her until after 4:00 pm. I think they were surprised she was still alive when we got there at 4, barely, but she was. They did what they do and we brought her home and buried her with our other beloved pets.
Oh Amy, it was so sad and I still cry. She suffered. Iāll never, ever, let that happen again. My pain is in that I didnāt take her sooner. Please, know you did right for Taranga and for yourself. :: hugs :: :: hugs :: :: hugs ::
thanksā¦i shouldve saved her. who knows what the outcome of the surgery wouldve done but still. i feel guilty and regret. i cried today and im crying now again. i shouldve had her pass at home naturally. i would of had dealt with it a bit easier. just like how i dealt with calvins passing. monday it will be 2 months since she has been gone. i dont wanna cry anymore. i know she would want me to be happy, etc. and fill my heart with love for another. calvin would think the same as well. i just feel lonely
i love having bubba and sometimes wished i could keep him. but i know that wont happen. bubba has helped me a bit. but i know he belongs to his mom and dad (my friend). im not sure how heāll react in going home after being away from them for so long even tho he got to see them every once in a while. will he miss me? will he hope to be coming back to my house? will he be happy to be with his mom and dad again? i dont know. he seems happy at my house. he loves to snuggle. give you love bites, head butts on your arm, etc. he just shows the love. then he has a pain in the butt side by breaking the blinds, hopping on the window sill where he isnt suppose to hop on and gets himself in trouble. he loves car rides, loves having a walk, he doesnt mind going into the pet store. so he has his oks and not oks. overall right now he is being too darn cute with his sleeping right now. took quite a few pics already.
Always remember the good times and try your best to let them be what fills your heart, mind, and soul ā¦ especially when you start to feel sad or down. Itās helped me.
Awww! Enjoy 
Hereās hoping he is able to stay as long as you need him!
