any pics of the cats? i would love to see them. Ive been looking at the local shelters website at the cats. even tho im not ready i enjoy looking at them. i say yay when i see them get adopted. its a nice feeling especially those that has been there for a while. one has been at the shelter for a while and finally got adopted. they have kittens and cats that are in their senior years. i may see if there is a pair that needs to go home together. that way they have each other. i have room in my heart for two. plus that is the limit i can have at my apt. i still have the litter boxes and food bowls out. i havent been able to pick them up and put them away. ive been talking to tarangas ashes. it seems to help a bit even tho i feel like i wanna cry. im trying to heal. i know it will take a while. im just trying to heal a bit. my heart is empty. and it will be for a while. i ordered a pendent with tarangas and calvins names on it with their birthday to their death. i also ordered tarangas one with her pic on it with her info on the back. they both cost me a bit but it will be worth it. ill have it in my heart. i know in time ill feel better but it will never be that way in a way. i look at her pics and remember that day i took them. how i smiled, etc. or called her name to look at the camera. sigh. today i even think about her thinking she is at home and how i cant wait to see her. but nope, ill see her ashes. anyways, my boyfriend is making me eggs benedict. my favorite breakfast.
one of the pendents comes tomorrow while the other one comes in a few days. it may arrive tomorrow as well. i cant wait to see them. i hope they will look nice as i did spent a total of 50 on both. i brought her ashes with me to my best friendās house to sleep with. its been hard to sleep without it. i did without it at my boyfriendās house as i wouldnt be able to sleep with it in bed. and i had a hard time sleeping. oh well. im trying to get through this. its hard.
Yes, you will! And yes, it is hard. My heart goes out to you. Please know, my thoughts and prayers are always with you! ::tight hugs::
I hope this can work out for you. I think it is a great idea! A heart for each kittyā¦ 
thanks for the prayers and thoughts. i didnt think it was going to be this hard. when i lost calvin it was a bit easier as i had taranga to cheer me up, etc.
i think when i am ready ill get two cats so they have each other and not be alone. although taranga enjoyed being the only cat as she gotten use to it from losing calvin. plus two to love, two that gives me loves, etc
i managed to get tarangas collar big enough to put around my wrist (I have small wrist). so now i have a piece of her to wear. when looking at the pendent i had made up from amazon, i looked at it to have the wrong date for calvins passing. i almost cried. now i have to get it etched out and fixed so i can wear it with pride.
at the end of my nap the song wind beneath my wings popped into my head. i cried. it made me miss taranga big time. my best friend gave me a hug when i told her what happened and i cried in front of her. im hoping my boyfriend will come over to comfort me. i need it. i havent heard from him all day. i also gave my best friend the forget me not flower seeds so she can plant them on behalf of taranga. i cant wait to see them. thats todays journey
I faced the same challenge after Harley passed. Tuesday I got home from teaching yoga and told my husband that I needed to go up and check on Harley. I still miss his voice in the morning telling me to get up and feed him! We will have a memorial stone made for him and place it in the garden with the stones for our other beloved kitties. 
i just miss her so much. i cried last night before my boyfriend came over to my houseā¦i needed the comfort. i got both of the pendents. calvins passing date is incorrect :(ā¦i couldve sworn i had the right date on it. tarangas came out beautiful. it has her date on the back. and on the front its her picā¦
Sending hugsā¦
thanksā¦after my boyfriend left my house i started crying. i told my boyfriend before we went in that i still think she is here. its hard for me to think i know she is gone and thats ok. sorry guys if this is all i write. i know ill be happy again and will get another cat soon. if i take bubba back ill be putting up pics of him. then once he is at his moms and dads house again once they find a place ill get my own cat(s) again. not sure tho. it depends on how i am feeling.
i decided to find a pet loss grief website. rainbowsbridge.com was the first one that popped up in my search. i went into the chatroom and have talked to a few great people. and they were helpful as we talked about our babies. i discovered they have a memorial you can do. so i did one for taranga. it was only $25 for the year. so i decided why not. i created a pretty one for her. the pic i have on her tombstone looks a bit too small but thats ok. talking to others that are grieving is nice. it helps. ill still be grieving but at least i have people i can talk toā¦between 8a-noon they have councellers that comes in i think. so that will be helpful as well. if im ever up before noon.
i am also going to get a refund from amazon. i need to send the pendent that has the wrong information back. then iāll get the refund then i can have a new pendent made with tarangas and calvins info on there. with the correct info as well. so that made me feel a bit better today. i did cry when i got home. i just thank all those who have been supportive and been there for me. allowing me to just talk on how much i miss her, etc.
That really sounds like a nice resource you have found. Looking forward to your life returning to normal, but of course that takes time. Hang in there.
thanks. the guestbook that ive recieved so far has made me cry. they were kind words and oh so true. some have left me a link to theirs and i read theirs and it made me smile. i left them each a guestbook. im on the chat now. I hope taranga will give me a sign that she is ok and misses me too. not sure what sign it will be. i know some people knows that they were given a sign. i know with my dad ill talk to him and ask for a sign. one time to stop raining. he made the sun come out. but with taranga im not sure. calvin comes into my dreams sometimes. but for taranga, it would be nice to feel something.
i created this for mothers day. to still wish those a mothers day even tho they have lost their cute furbabies. i figured it could be part of my healing. i included a bit of the rainbow bridge. it has the forget me not flowers. a cat, dogs, a rainbow. I couldnt find something that was specifically rainbow bridge. so i just did a rainbow. it may be shining on a bridge in the background. What do you guys think? im not good at creating stuff.
Lovely, thank you! 
welcome. i cried in front of my mom today when she dropped me off from our mothers day brunch. i couldnt help it. i miss my babies. the first mothers day without a furbaby(ies)ā¦it was hard to hear happy mothers day. our waitress is a furmama. i gave taranga and calvinās ashes a kiss. And how much i love them. right now im at my best friendās house for the evening as i didnt want to be alone. it was just a hard day
::tight hugs::
thanksā¦im doing a wee bit better today. i slept ok last nightā¦im hoping i see my boyfriend tonight. the person at the rainbow bridge website suggested i take bubba back so i dont be alone. maybe that is true. im not sure. i guess ill think about it
My cats have been keeping me busy with trips to the vet. Amador had to have a tooth out, Leo is now on medication for hyperthyroidism, and Mouse got into a fight and had to have treatment for a bite wound. Gah!!
it does sound like you are busy! busier than i. im at my boyfriendās for the night as i had an upper/gi endoscopy done and was sedated. so im spending the night at his house as it makes more send then him coming back to my house to get me tomorrow, etc. i woke up from a nap as i needed it. so im around my boyfriendās cat plus bubba. Bubba is actually on a walk with my boyfriend as we speak. its raining here so im not sure how bubba will react. today was a different kind of day. i had a procedure done (a gi endoscopy) that kept me busy and not thinking about anything else. then i rest up once i got home, etc. so right now i am on the rainbowsbridge website in the chatroom. lovely people over there
@CatLady Wow, you have been busy! Hereās hoping everything calms down soon.
@amymc Iām so glad there is an online community that you can reach out too and even chat real-time in! We are fortunate today, to have such communities! Take care of yourself and I hope everything with the endoscopy turns out in your favor.