RECOVERING VERY SLOWLY AND OBSESSIVE THINKING:
So since I last filled you in, I fell, more like a crash, from my walker and hit the floor pretty hard. So now of course I am obsessing that I have completely paralyzed myself. I call the surgeon and explain myself. I was told that so long as I did NOT have radiating pain shooting down my legs and arms, I was most likely just fine. That they have had a patient who was in a car accident not too long after their surgery and they were just fine. That these rods and screws are Titanium and VERY hard to break.
But nevertheless, whenever I get a deep cramp, or anything that does not feel “right” around my spine, I begin to freak out. Wouldn’t you if you had gone through all of this???
So recovery is truly truly slow. A LOT slower than I ever expected. I am starting to be able to move my legs and even walk a little bit (emphasis of LITTLE BIT) without my walker ( five feet to maybe eight feet). I can only lift my legs about 3 inches from the ground (and I am following the PT exercises at home every day with my husband )(they are truly exhausting and within just 15 minutes my blood sugar will drop about 20 points!!) It takes me about 1 hour to walk 1/2 way around my block and back, and my blood sugars will go from 150 to 105 !!! OMG
And, no matter how I set and re-set my Pump, I cannot seem to find the “right” basal settings or ICRs. I can go down to 35 doing nothing but sitting in my desk chair to swinging up to 195 from drinking a tiny bit of apple juice and then walking. I can wake up at 75 only to spike 15 minutes later to 170 (out of nowhere, no food, no drinking, nothing) And believe me when I tell you, I have tried everything I can think of!!!
I am in chronic pain all day and all night long. I have night sweats reminiscent of Menopause. Most of this, I have found, is due to the medication I am taking. And BTW, the current meds I am taking (with many tweaks and changes) are OXYCODONE, TYLENOL, GABAPENTIN, AND ELEVIL. I not only have the surgical pain but I have neuropathic pain due to one of the locations of my surgery which is on the left side in which they removed 2 hyrniated discs and went under the muscles to put in “cages” to separate the vertebrae.
Anyway, last night was a ■■■■ show . I was in terrible terrible pain throughout the night and felt certain that all of my falls, or other things I have done which I am not supposed to be doing ( reaching, twisting, etc) has completely crippled me. Then I convince myself that these are just normal spinal recovery pains and I take a pain killler and a muscle relaxant and all the pain abets. like magic. no more pain at all.
So, this is where I am at today. Its one day at a time, sometimes one moment at a time. I have a new set of X-rays in. 2 weeks and then I see the surgeon. I will know more then and be able to report it all back to you.
Again, thank you all for your prayers and support and generosity.
signing out,
DM