This is a weird post for me – I am driven by data more than anything else. But, in this case, I am trying to share an impression, a feeling maybe.
For the first time in 6-7 months (since the start of FUD), I just spent some time on another, very large diabetes forum (not tuD) that I used to visit regularly. I was totally shocked by the extraordinary difference in the level of knowledge and understanding in the posts. I guess I have become so accustomed to the level of our discussions here – I can’t even explain. It felt like a different world.
To try to illustrate what I mean: someone asked about the possibility of a new technology where a pump would be coupled with a CGM. One moderator replied that this was so far out it was not even worth considering it, and insurance would not cover it anyway. Only one guy (at least one who posted) knew about OpenAPS and the MDT 670G. Hardly anyone had answered the thread over the past three days.
I don’t know if I had forgotten what it was like, or if we have progressively grown into who we are now. For sure we have all become, together, much more knowledgeable about D, both through our constant exchanges of information, but also through our willful experimentation. I know one reason for this is that we all strive to know more and to get better at it: this is what we are and why we are all finding our way here.
This is not my point, though. My point is that, even though I was in a part of the DOC, I did not feel like I belonged. God knows how many times a week I am frustrated by my lack of understanding of WHY my son’s BG is reacting as it is – but in that other forum, it felt that the very standard of knowledge, the expectations members had, were different from ours. The collective knowledge of the group was less polished, less thorough, less deep. People did not seem to care as much about helping other fellow members. I felt like an alien. It was a foreign place to me.
I just can’t imagine being a part of another place. FUD really feels like home.