My roller coaster has continued into today, but I’m back to feeling less like a helpless lump and a little more driven to just make it stop. So I’m here with a scenario to see how the pros handle such sticky situations because that’s definitely what it FELT like I had this morning…
First of all, I slept through my alarming pump again this morning. 2.5 hours’ worth of my pump warning me of a suspend, but I didn’t catch that. So when I woke up at a 121, I knew I wasn’t there to stay. It was early enough I figured I could just get myself right out the door for exercise and at least try to take advantage of the inevitable high that was coming.
UNFORTuNATELY, I can’t roll out of bed and start exercising, no matter how much I need to, without first having coffee. About 2 cups. I, like many, need insulin for my coffee. I also need insulin for my 2.5 hours of NO insulin, but, as I said, I had my eye on exercise, and I was currently at 0 IOB. 1.5 cups of coffee later (maybe 25 minutes), I was at a 225 or so. I went out the door. My sensor glucose continued to rise for a while, up to over a 300, even at the point in my session where I’m usually plummeting. Finally by the end, I had returned to about a 170, but it wasn’t the end of the high. Even though I never had any glucose tablets, no temp basal, and no carbs, I rose again to a 200 about an hour after finishing. I was watching my calibration factor all morning, I did know I was likely to rise again, and I did make a choice to keep an eye on it rather than treating. My only mistake in that second rise was letting it get that high, and that only happened because I figured a round of food shopping would be enough to drop me. It wasn’t, and I hit 200. It was probably 3 hours after exercise that I was all clear for a carb.
It’s a whole scenario… plenty to pick apart. I KNEW it wasn’t okay to have coffee on top of a suspend like that, but i honestly didn’t know how to handle the IOB. I probably shouldn’t have chosen today to watch that second rise either, given my less than ideal blood sugars as of late, but the opportunity was there to see what happens in this kind of case, and I want to know this. Next time I’ll do a bolus afterwards. That’s all of the justification and preemptive defensive remarks I can think of. If anyone has any ideas, I’d love to hear them.
And about dips… Emotional dips. I get these, and they can hit hard. They make it hard to take good care of myself. After developing diabetes, I learned to keep them short. Er. Shorter. I learned that I couldn’t afford 6 weeks to get myself together. I could afford 1… day, really…and then it would still take me a week. But the point is that I don’t have the luxury of staying blue too long. Diabetes could not care less whether or not I’m feeling demoralized. Anyway, I’m not sure anyone knows what I’m talking about (myself included), but developing diabetes taught me how to get over stuff and move on. This site is teaching me that, too. I wasn’t feeling okay yesterday, and I’m feeling okay today. That’s fast. I’m just talking… and feeling appreciative.