I was hanging out and enjoying a pleasant lunch with a friend and he off-handedly mentioned that his friend from high school, who had type 1 diabetes, suddenly died in his sleep. My friend is 38 so this man couldn’t have been much older.
Most of the time I don’t think about those worst-case scenarios at all, but that sent me into a spiral of worry and also just triggered this vague feeling of doom and unrest – probably because I had to drive past the hospital where Samson was treated for his seizures and his T1D diagnosis, and because I had an appointment for his medical care plan for kindergarten next year. Combined with all the seizure scares earlier this year, I think I have a little bit of medical PTSD or something.
We do so much to keep Samson safe but there are still so many scary outcomes and ways the systems can fail. And one day he’ll be in charge of his health, and we’ll have limited ability to help him. How do you shake off worries like these or feelings of doom? Usually we’re pretty good at not worrying about these things and just focusing on the day-to-day but today it’s been really getting me down.