Okay. Sounds good about the light running this week. I will shoot for a good BG on Thursday. I mean, I’ll shoot for a good BG everyday, but I’ll really shoot for one on Thursday. 
Today:
Aug 6 Monday
Indoor 40 min—4.25 mi @ 6.4
-Coffee earlier… more than an hour ago and still floating.
-No ZB
-Cutting basal at start
Starting BG: 181
Mi 1:157
*Half a transcend
Mi 1.6: —
*other half of transcend
Mi 2: 137
Mi 3: 137
Mi 4: 109
*Resume basal
Mi 4.25: finish
Walk .75 mi
Off at 90
RPE 5
It’s all about what’s easiest. It’s easiest to not think about it, not worry about it, and just have a coffee and deal with the fallout. Before you say anything… I know it’s not easiest to do it that way, but the pushier half of my mind thinks it is.
It’s not my heart that needs ramping up. It’s my brain.
See, we have different scales here… I don’t think I need it between a short 1-3 mile run. Say 1-2 miles to be safe. Maybe just 1. And I’m not just doping up on coffee again before the runs, I’m also hitting the caffeine gels during. It’s like my entire inner strength core has just collapsed. I can get myself up for the run, I can make myself run the run, I can even halfway enjoy some of the run, but I’m going to have caffeine at every opportunity. I was doing this stuff without caffeine. I have to start the battle all over again. 
I’d say.
I knew that before. I really did. Genuinely and through and through. I knew the negative effects far outweighed whatever the perceived positive effects were. From the bottom of my heart I knew it. That’s what made it easy to not do it before heading out the door. I wasn’t willing to blow my run. Now I’m struggling with the numbers… struggling with caring about the numbers. So it’s all the same conditions, all the same factors, but a different negative outcome. Before I just knew I had to fix the numbers, and that would affect the run. Now I’m struggling with finding the motivation to fix the numbers… I don’t know if it makes sense. Maybe it’s burnout? Maybe it’s depression… maybe it’s a stage or a symptom of the season or I don’t know what, but I’m trying to find my way back. So the coffee… it’s not just a cup of coffee. If that makes sense.
I made myself not drink it within an hour of the run today. And I made myself have a Transcend during the run instead of my gel-crack caffeine in a tube thing I have. And my run was fine. Nice even. I’m trying.
Reading all of this, we need to fix what is between your ears.
Physically you are progressing. But we need to get your mind right on the other stuff.
I can make the next few weeks all about that if you want.
Are you willing to commit to it?
Yup.
I’d like that very much. I am trying.
I wouldn’t put it out there if I didn’t genuinely want the help. Yes, I can commit.
And thank you. 
Aug 6 Tuesday (I think it’s been aug 6th for 3 days now, so pay that no mind)
3.2 mi indoor @ 6.4
-Coffee
-Then turned Basal-IQ off for 2 hours
-Dropping around time I was ready to run so had a yogurt
-Then banana and 4 candy corn at start
-Cut basal
Starting BG: 86
-Not testing-
Mi 3.2: finish
29 min
Ending BG: 95
RPE 4
Were you doing the thing I told you about where you don’t test?!?
Look what you did! Isn’t that awesome?
So was the coffee 2 hours before? Like this? 
You might think this little run today was meaningless. I think it’s the biggest run you’ve had in a month.
I am gonna make some special runs for you the next 2 weeks. You have to promise to follow it EXACTLY. No cheating, no ad lib’s, no impromptu adjustments. Just like it’s spelled out.
Deal?
I was.
It was a little awesome. I can’t deny it. 
Intentionally and carefully so. Yes.
I actually thought it as a very meaningful little run… but biggest works, too.
I was happy. Enough to want to treadmill dance. So that was kinda cool…
Deal. As long as they don’t cancel out all of the regular runs??? Because I need those, too… yeah?
And thank you.
Today… yesterday now… was August 8th. Thursday. I had 6 sets of .5 mile @ 7:30 with 2 minute jog— mile warm up and cool down. Kind of expected it to kick my butt, but it was rather nice instead.
Mom’s out of town, so I didn’t have much notice before I needed to start my run. So no ZB, coffee about an hour and 15 minutes before starting (had no idea I was starting soon), and cut basal at start.
Starting BG: 162 (I’ve done worse)
Mi 1 : 147
Mi 2: 112
Mi 2.25: —
*Huma (was afraid of having legs feel weak)
Mi 3: 103
Mi 4: 99
Mi 5.25: 96
Mi 6.25: 81 and done
RPE 6 for most but 7 for last 2 sets. Really enjoyed it, and it left me feeling pretty happy. Even felt like a little light dance-walking at the end. 
congratulations Nicky!!! this is wonderful. did this feel like a better run for you? i have learned that when i swim with lower BGs my swim is easier, more enjoyable and i have a great feeling of success.
awesome!!! Keep it up. also, its really nice to see how committed you are. it has taken me 2.5 years to get where i am today. but, I really put Eric through the ringer getting there 
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Aug 9 indoor— just getting to post yesterday’s run. And waiting by the door to get out for today’s. 
*Hour basal IQ suspend 15 min before starting run
*Had 2 yogurts for a crash
Cutting basal at start
Starting BG 83
Mi 1: 75
*Transcend
Mi 2: 63
*Transcend
Mi 3: 63
Mi 3.75: —
*resume basal
Mi 4.4: 73 and done
Walk .5
RPE 4
Much better. I’m even feeling a little better overall. It’s good to be surrounded by good people. 
isnt FUD the absolute best!!! well, at least for me, its been one of my greatest finds on earth!!! 
It’s meant big stuff for me, @daisymae. I couldn’t agree more. 
Same for me. I feel so much better running at these “lower” (i.e., non-D) numbers!! 
Who would have known it was even possible to do this as a T1D. Thanks to all of the great FUD threads by @daisymae, @Nickyghaleb, @T1Allison, @Eric, of course, for all of the coaching and sports wikis, and many other contributors! 
i’ll tell you that when i started this about 2 1/2 years ago, it seemed like every day, everyone on FUD was chiming in and supporting me. i would report my swim in detail, and i would get one respose after another. i didnt think i could ever succeed the way that i have, but no one ever gave up on me. It’s all a reflection, to me anyway, of the power we all have to impact one another’s lives living with this PITA disease.
And on that note, @daisymae, here’s my report on how my run went with this PITA disease…
And @Trying, I thought about you for the first 4 miles… as I tried to get up out of my hole. 
Aug 10 Saturday indoor 8.5 mi 1:18 total
Train wreck in the hours leading up to my run. I’d describe that, but I want to be able to show my face around here again…
Yeah, I’ll just leave it at that. But @Eric, this wasn’t a coffee thing. It was an everything thing. And it was almost an “I’ll do this tomorrow” thing.
Starting BG: 253
*.3 unit pump bolus
Mi .5: —
*.3 unit again
Mi 1: 270
*1 unit pump bolus
Mi 2: 260
Mi 3: 200
Mi 4: 169
Mi 5: 130
*Cut baaal
Mi 6: 96
Mi 7: 75
*3 tabs
Mi 8: 64
*1 tab
Mi 8.5: 64
*Resume basal
*Walk half
Off at 82
RPE would’ve been a 5-5.5 if it hadn’t been for an upset tummy for the first 4 miles… with all those chips, air heads, yogurts, and coke splashing around in it. Who knew.
You got it done, which is super important. And I am proud of you for sticking with it and taking care of it today. That is great!
I am proud of you for gutting this out, I truly am.
Which makes my next post very difficult, but it’s just where we are right now and it has to happen. 